Troubled

I wrote this a really really long time ago. Ok, so a year isn’t that long ago but in the whole scheme of things, when it comes to songs, it’s one of the first. Sometimes the earliest songs I’ve written are awful but this one isn’t too bad.

at one point I’d plucked out the piano chords for this. It’s meant to be played on the piano and the violin. The problem is I don’t play the Piano or the violin. Oh well.

so here you go.

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-v1-
3 in the morning, I wake up again, too hard to go back to sleep
But too long to wait up, so I toss and turn, then get up to change the sheets.

-v2-
My tears have flooded my bed and I wonder how long I’ve cried in my sleep tonight
Probably longer than yesterday, for my eyes are even more tired from grief.

 

—c—
Troubled .
My heart wants to blow as I try my best to
Hold
it together.
But my arms are too weak and I struggle to breathe.
And I fall on my face on the hold hard floor and
Beg and plead
“Dear God save me”
Hear me when I call, oh God hear my prayer…

 

-v3-
Trying to get through my day drinking crazy amounts of caffeine just to keep me awake
Fake meditation and yoga are all just things taking time up in my day

-v4-
Nothing contemporary gives me peace, no medication calms my aching soul.
The storm is still raging, threatening my sanity, inside my mind is a huge black hole.

—c—

-bridge-
For my soul is greatly troubled, oh God how long
Heal me God; my body is breaking from trouble, God how long?

—c—

-break-
You say blessed is he who puts their trust in God cry out and he will hear you
God I’m crying out to you, why have you turned your face?
I need you to help me today…

(Music break)

I cried to the lord and he heard my voice, he answered me in his mercy
I lay down to sleep and awoke the next day, with a dry pillow waiting to greet me.
God you let me lay down in peace, I am refreshed all through my day
I will call on Your name every morning,
For You’ve answered me in your mercy

(X2)

Inspired by Psalms 2-6
God's word is the ultimate inspiration

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Yeah so you can tell from this that I wasn’t always the happy optimistic person that I am now. But we go through things for a reason, right? Remember the potter and they clay? More on that another time.

~H