Does it really matter what I major in for school? No. It doesn’t.
What’s my long-term goal, you may ask. What do you want to do with your life, who do you want to be? here’s my answer: I want to glorify God and enjoy Him forever, and I want to be me—just… a better, nicer, more loving version of me.
So… where does school fall into that? idk.
So far here is my list of things I’m “interested” in (as in, I do some of this now and I like it, but I’m not sure if I really want to spend four years focusing on it and then get a job in it or not.):
--Writing (fiction)
--Literature
--Criminal Justice
--Home Ec.
--Interior design/sewing
--Exercise science/education
--Psychology
--Information Technology and Security
--Web Design
I do all of these things (except, of course, Criminal Justice and IT/S) and I like all of them—but I’m not good at them. As in, I’m not really good at one thing. Like my sisters, for instance. Hannah is an AMAZING writer, and will probably be published by the time she graduates High School. She can also paint like DaVinci. Carly can sing and write. And Carly… man, that girl can really sing. My brother is an amazing musician, both with music and lyrics. He can sing pretty well too.
But what can I do? I can throw together a website in half an hour. I can knit a pair of leg warmers. I can take a lump of hard dirt, put it on a wheel, add water (and stir) and make a beautiful pot. I can sew curtains for the bathroom and fix my mom’s pants and sew buttons onto dad’s shirt. I can ride a bike at 26.9 miles an hour. (no, not downhill.) I can fit THIS MUCH STUFF into this much space. I can give my dad a back massage, and I can give my sister exercises that will have her weak ankles better in three weeks. I can clean a kitchen better than my mom (when I try). I can write stories that make people laugh, gasp, and cry within minutes of each other. I can fix ANYTHING with hot-glue.
And only job that describes is—you guessed it—a mom. Which is exactly what I want! I want to get married and have kids. But I don’t want to do that right out of college.
So I’m trying to figure out something that I can do, at least for a while, and live comfortably enough, before I get married. (mind you, I haven’t found a husband yet. And if I can’t find one that throws a major kink in the plan.) I want to live and be single and have a job and some girlfriends for a while before I give my life up for 25 or 30 years to raise children.
But what do I do.
Idk.
I’m trying not to freak out over it.
Advice? Prayer? thx.
~H
Sounds to me like you're good at a ton of things, and there are a million jobs you could possibly have. The only thing I've ever really been good at in my life is math, and I don't really like it all that much.
ReplyDeleteSo really you're quite lucky.
Do something you love and that will allow you lots of free time for being a mom, in the eventuality you decide to be a working mother. :-)
It is wonderful that you are good at so many things. I'll be praying for you as you decide what you'd like to do in college.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. "I'm a jack of all trades, master of none" myself. As I've matured, I have found that I do enjoy some things more than others. It's really nice to be good at a lot of things, however. You can face many situations with confidence. You can take in new skills by relating them to your current skills. You can fold, bend, and change directions more quickly than most people. I'm praying for you too!
ReplyDeleteHaley,
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing young woman. I knew it when I first met you and you babysat my little munchkins. You keep on trusting the Lord and keeping your head strong. God's plan for you will be perfect and for His glory no doubt. Keep on studying, writing, web-designing, sewing, knitting, loving, and living fully. You are a blessing to all of the people around you and far away from you. The Lord will guide you sister!